Monday, July 26, 2004

thoughts

just the sound of your name makes me quiver
the thought of seeing you pains me
of all the times my world fell
i always see your shadow

why do i keep on letting you live
you bring only pure sadness
yet i'm letting you stay
with all the blood i shed for you, i still let you stay

i have cried my last tear for you
but i've already learned to cry without tears
the last wound you brought has healed
yet i know i'd never stop bleeding

here, in my smoky world, you still exist
here, where you're supposed to vanish
god, i want to forget you
if only i could . . .

Friday, July 16, 2004

patay oras

1. FAVORITE BREAKFAST IS . . .
- silogs

2. THE MOVIE I'VE WATCHED MOST NUMBER OF
TIMES IS . . .
- butterfly effect

3. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL . . .
- i don't have favorites

4. SPEND MY LEISURE TIME
- getting drunk

5. WORST SMELL?
- puke

6. IF I COULD HAVE ANY CAR IN THE WORLD, WHAT
WOULD IT BE?
- car ko ha need for speed

7. FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE?
- cooking

8. WHEN I WAS A KID I DREAMED OF BECOMING A . . .
- a scientist . . . nyehehehe

9. FAVORITE COLOR/s?
- green, black

10.FAVORITE PERFORMER(S)?
- rico blanco . . . hehe

11. WHEN I DIE, I'D RATHER BE CREMATED OR
BURIED?
- cremated

12. IF I COULD REPEAT COLLEGE, I'D TAKE
- fine arts

13. THREE THINGS I CAN'T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
- keys, lighter, money

14. FIRST THING I BOUGHT WITH MY FIRST SALARY . . .
- n/a

15. I'D LIKE TO BE REMEMBERED AS . . .
- somebody without any inhibition

16. IF A BOOK WAS MADE INTO A MOVIE, WOULD YOU
STILL BOTHER TO READ THE BOOK?
- yes

17. SPECIALTY IN COOKING?
- i used to be good in baking

18. PRESENT CRUSH?
- *sigh*

19. FAVORITE HANG-OUT?
- mader's, global

20. BEST PLACE TO SHOP?
- anywhere basta damo cash

21. DO YOU LIKE TO WATCH PLAYS?
- yup

22. FAVORITE PLACE IN YOUR HOUSE?
- couch in front of the TV

23. BEST GIFT YOU'VE GIVEN?
- lahat . . . ΓΌ

24. WEIRDEST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
- binoculars and a toy handcuff, courtesy of jan aguja

25. GIFT THAT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE AS OF THIS
MOMENT?
- a book or a CD

26. WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE BEST QUALITY OF
THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
- who sent this?

27. OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL THIS TO,
WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO REPLY?
- i dunno

28. ANONG ORAS NA?
- 2:25

29. ANO SA KEYBOARD ANG PARATI MONG NAPIPINDOT
- backspace . . . hehe


30. YAHOO OR HOTMAIL:
- yahoo

31. LEFT OR RIGHT:
- right

32. BLACK OR WHITE:
- black

33. BLACK OR BLUE PEN:
- black pen

34. SANDALS OR SHOES:
- slippers

35. COLGATE OR HAPPEE:
- colgate

36.chopsticks or spoon and fork?
- pag trip, chopstix

38. ROBOCOP OR RAMBO:
- robocop

39. JOLLIBEE OR MCDO:
- MCDO!

40. COKE OR PEPSI:
- coke . . .

41. SAN MIG LIGHT, LONE STAR LIGHT, OR REDHORSE:
- RED HORSE!

42. WINSTON or MARLBORO (yosi):
- gold . . . hehe

43. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO:
- yves and adonis

44. LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU:
- tatay ko

45. LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH:
- i already forgot

46. LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY?
- *sigh* same stupid person . . .

47. THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED:
- last last night yata . . .

48. SOMEONE TO BE WITH:
- obsession

49. YOU SEE ME ALWAYS EATING..
- pwed drinking?

50. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE:
- dark

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

weirdo

where did my memories go
right now i seek my past
only to get lost
in the tangles of my many lives

how do i find myself
i've let go of everything
in seeking, i've reached the dark
there's no way i'm turning back

visions flood above me
yet when i look, i see nothing
voices haunt my head
but they're never saying anything

right now i seek a sanctuary
i'd show all my weaknesses
just for brief moments of solitude
i am alone, i want to be alone

Monday, July 12, 2004

wray la

"Don't Turn Around"
by Ace of Base

If you wanna leave
I won't beg you to say
And if you gotta go darling
Maybe it's better that way
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just walk out the door
See if I care
Go on and go, but

Don't turn around
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around
I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go
But I won't let you go

I won't miss your arms around me
Holding me tight
And if you ever think about me
Just know that I'll be alright
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
I will survive
I'll make it through
I'll even learn to live without you

Don't turn around . . .

I wish I could scream out loud
That I love you
I wish I could say to you
Don't go
As he walks away
He feels the pain growing strong
People in your life
They don't know what's going on
Too proud to turn around
He's gone

Don't turn around . . .

Friday, July 09, 2004

6 more minutes

just trying to kill time

Thursday, July 08, 2004

start

today
different from yesterday
another day tomorrow
and then one more after