thoughts

just the sound of your name makes me quiver
the thought of seeing you pains me
of all the times my world fell
i always see your shadow

why do i keep on letting you live
you bring only pure sadness
yet i'm letting you stay
with all the blood i shed for you, i still let you stay

i have cried my last tear for you
but i've already learned to cry without tears
the last wound you brought has healed
yet i know i'd never stop bleeding

here, in my smoky world, you still exist
here, where you're supposed to vanish
god, i want to forget you
if only i could . . .